have a heart

today, isaac's heart began to exhibit some signs of a little duress. nothing to be alarmed about, i guess. but it's just behaving differently, causing his blood pressure to go up some, and they're keeping an eye on it. the nurse assured me that it was a good sign he was peeing alot, he was digesting the food they're giving him as those are systems that shut down when things are going wrong.

anyway, we're in this holding pattern for a bit. it's kinda wierd -- i feel sorta like the single unattached person i was a little over 2 years ago... it's something i've done for years and it feels almost normal.

but this blog's about isaac. not me!

i am always glad to walk into his room and see the nurses bored. or just chatting about mundane topics, like what their child did that day. i always wish them a boring evening when i leave.

i'm rooting for you, isaac, my sweet sweet sweetheart of a son.