withdrawals and extubation

the boy's going through classic withdrawal symptoms now... for me it's enough to know he'll be through it in a week or two, so watching him suffer, while no fun to see, doesn't bother me too much. yeah, he's not too happy right now. shaking. eyes dilated. he did some puking tonight and dry heaves. and he just gets really unhappy.

well, tomorrow (i realize this is already tomorrow) (tuesday) he has scheduled at 8am the official extubation -- where they take out the ventillator. he has been breathing all day on his own. his o2 sats have been very good. his heartrate overall is low (120ish). it seems to increase (up to 180!) when the withdrawal symptoms are at their worst which i guess is when he's in need of a fix.

they found a bacteria in his lungs today and started a course of antibiotics. he hasn't really shown too much in the way of symptoms except maybe for some extra sneezing, coughing, and extra phlegm. we uh... hope that sucker is nipped in the bud. last thing we need is another pneumonia. having a tube which is all warm and moist (perfect for little single celled creatures to plunk down a community) down his throat is a direct access for bugs to get into isaac's lungs. unfortunately, this is a lame side-effect of having any tube or iv or whatever other type of entry point into your body.

last year in this time, i was overtly large with baby... i'd tested negative for this group b strep (which i'd tested positive b4 i was pregnant from a bladder infection), so that was a relief! because i didn't want my baby to get antibiotics into his precious pure system!! and i think about all the stuff he's been through this past year... how pointless of it was for me to have even worried he might get a little antibiotic in him. yeesh.

it just shows to go you. worrying, even though it seems hard to help, sure is pointless.

ok, isaac, i bid you a sweet goodnight.